We Locked In: A Little Midnight Honesty

Hey y’all… can I be honest?
I was all over the place with this post. It took me a while to pull together what I actually wanted to say and honestly, I kinda still don’t know. It’s 2:25 AM. I’m so messy, lmao i’m watching Young & Reckless while writing this.

I’ve been thinking a lot about vulnerability lately. How it’s messy, uncomfortable, and so damn necessary. That word. There’s so much power behind it. Why is vulnerability so often seen as weak? Like who came up with that?

Once upon a time if you know, you know I never wore my emotions on my sleeve. I was taught to be strong. Don’t cry. Keep your head up. But, i’m not gonna lie.. not being open with my true feelings or intentions caused a lot of havoc in my life.

Being open about s*icide was a lot. Talking about my mental illness was a lot. If you know me personally, then you know my story. You know the details. But putting that information out to the public? That was scary as hell. It took everything in me not to delete it. But that was me being vulnerable. We locked innnnn! You know my secret, girl. Thank you for hearing me.

On a lighter note I have three more cycles of chemotherapy left. I’m excited, I can’t lie. But I’m also like… is remission gonna be real this time? Lol. No shade, it wasn’t even five days after I rang the bell last time, I was told I still had cancer. So I’m 50/50 right now. No signs of a new tumor though, which is good per my scans. However, something new popped up a cyst in my thyroid gland. So I gotta get that checked, chile.

All in all, I’m thankful. I’m so blessed literally.

A month ago I was STRUGGLING mentally. Like spiraling. My meds are working, I love my therapist. I literally told my friend today, like i’ve had a couple different “therapists.” This is the first one I truly trust and is 100% open/honest with.

I think I’ll end it here, girl. I’m about to watch The Chi and eat popcorn with jalapeños & truffle salt. Fyeeeee. Thank me laterrrrrrrr.

Promise me you’ll be soft with yourself too. Vulnerability is scary but it’s freedom too real talk. Be gentle with yourself tonight, and cheers to being vulnerable.

As always,
— K🤍

Song of forever : All I Know x DaniLeigh