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I mistook Pride for Strength
Itās been 10 years since I graduated high school.10 years. TEN. 10 years of learning and growing.10 years of surviving.10 years of adulthood.10 years of lessons, mistakes, trials, and tribulations. Crazy. I moved to Houston straight out of high school, and honestly? It was one of the worst decisions I ever made. People close to me know why, but if I could go back, I genuinely donāt think I wouldāve moved to Texas at all. Why did I do it? Pride. My pride was too strong. Something happened during my senior year of high school that caused me to completely shut down mentally. I stopped believing in myself. I didnāt…
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Back, In my own Time
Where have I been? Yeah⦠I know itās been a while. Forgive me PLEASE. Iām here now. Why did it take me so long to come back? Honestly, I wasnāt feeling connected. Nothing really came to mind to say. But if youāre here reading this, still accepting me and supporting me, I appreciate you. What is normal? I say this a lot when Iām struggling: āI wish I was just normal.ā But what even is normalcy? If I feel deeply and have hard days, does that mean Iām not normal? If I need medication to stay on a steady path, does that make me different? Are you ānormalā? I think Iām…
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Are you there? Because i’m Still Here
Hi. I know⦠I know.Itās been a while. First of all Happy New Year.Itās February 1st. How has your year been? Don’t lie, did your year start over today? lmaoooo Iām not gonna lie mine did. January wasnāt a waste. I actually did some good things. But Iāve been missing, so letās catch up. I got in the gym.Iām still in remission.My hair is growing back.My mental is stable. Thank you, God. Truly. Girlā¦Ā who am I?Ā Me and the gym in the same sentence is actually funny. Like I even went on my lunch break.Baddie behaviorrrrrrrrrrr My test came back negative meaning no tumor detected, thank God. I do have a…
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A Break, A Blessing, & A Beginning
Wassupppp. Happy holidays. Did you miss me? Honestly, Iāve had a lot going on, and I said before Iād tell you when I was ready⦠so letās break down a few things. I moved units at my property. The feng shui here is amazing. It feels so comforting and homey. Iām sleeping better, and Iām actually enjoying my space. My antidepressant was increased. I went through a long stressful, quiet, exhausting episode and it was needed, so Iāve just been navigating through that. Therapy is great per usualllll .. shoutout to my therapist. You know Iāve always said healing never ends. Itās a journey. And I think Iāve been pushing…
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Covered, Protected, and Chosen
Iāve always ALWAYS said iām one of Godās favorites. Thereās literally nothing anyone could tell me to make me believe otherwise.Why? Because iām a very blessed woman. I first realized this on the day I last attempted suicide. That day, I knew iām here for a reason. So much has happened since then, and every step has shown me I have a bigger purpose. When I say he has his hand over me, I truly mean it. I can never fail. No matter what happens, iām always lifted back up with a blessing exactly when I need it. It might not be when I want it, but itās always right…
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Finding Peace in the Person i’m Becoming
Lately, iāve been thinking a lot about purpose.. what it means, how to find it, and if itās something we create or uncover. For a long time, I thought purpose had to be this huge, world changing thing. Something loud. Something that made people say āwow.ā But recently, iāve realized⦠itās not always that dramatic. Sometimes your purpose is quiet. Sometimes itās soft. Sometimes itās just being you fully, freely, and without apology. I recently read an article on finding clarity on your purpose and motivations for life. Here are some things I reflected on, that makes me…. me. When I feel most alive, itās not when iām chasing something…
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Woahhh, Hiiiiii.
I know what youāre thinking forgive me. Iāve been going through it. A temporary setback, thatās all. Whatās crazy is⦠Iām back. Itās been two months of no thoughts, and somehow it all got fixed in one day. Today my good sis pulled up unexpectedly, and honestly? It wasĀ soĀ needed. We had coffee from Dutch Bros, good gossip, catching up on life lately, girl talk, good weed, and Cava. Perfect day, man. I didnāt even realize how much I needed this. It was so fulfilling simple, genuine, and grounding. I thoroughly enjoyed my entire day. I have to tell you whatās been going on the best way I can⦠but for…
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Whispers I Tell Myself While Becoming
Words carry energy. When we speak life into ourselves, we begin to believe it, embody it, and attract it. Affirmations are more than just positive phrases they are seeds of intention that with repetition and faith, bloom into our reality. Here are some affirmations and manifestations Iām speaking over my life right now. May they inspire you to claim the same energy for yourself, or create your own words that remind you of who you truly are. ⨠Abundance & Prosperity I deserve prosperity. I allow money to flow easily to me. I am wealthy. I am connected to the universal supply of money. Abundance is our birthright. When we…
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Confidence in progress. Donāt play with me!
I recently went to dinner, and something happened for the first time in my life: I felt at ease with myself. Beautiful. Confident. Fyeee. LOL. Now I know you might be thinking, āWhere are you going with this, girl?ā But stay with me. Iāve struggled with self-love for as long as I can remember. Insecure. Uncomfortable in my body. I canāt even tell you exactly why. Iāve just always hated how I looked. And you know what comes with that? That gotdamn A-word: anxiety. Years and years of not loving yourself doesnāt just disappear. It lingers. It seeps into everything…… how you dress, how you show up (or donāt), how you move through…
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Grace Counts Too: Redefining What Consistency Really Means
Why are you so hard on yourself? Really. Sit with that. When did showing up stop being enough for you? When did you decide that you always have to get it right perfectly or it doesnāt count? I ask because I know this feeling too well. I am my own biggest critic.. LITERALLY. Even when I do things right, I find a way to pick it apart how it couldāve been better, faster, more. But hereās the thing when was the last time you gave yourself grace? Do you reward yourself for even showing up? We hear so much aboutĀ consistency. Hustle. Grind. Never miss a day. But I think we…