Where have I been?

Yeah… I know it’s been a while. Forgive me PLEASE. I’m here now.

Why did it take me so long to come back? Honestly, I wasn’t feeling connected. Nothing really came to mind to say. But if you’re here reading this, still accepting me and supporting me, I appreciate you.

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What is normal?

I say this a lot when I’m struggling: “I wish I was just normal.”

But what even is normalcy? If I feel deeply and have hard days, does that mean I’m not normal? If I need medication to stay on a steady path, does that make me different? Are you “normal”?

I think I’m starting to question if “normal” is even a real thing, or just something we compare ourselves to when we feel off.

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April 27

This year will be my first birthday completely cancer free and chemotherapy free. I don’t really have big plans… maybe just go out to eat or something simple like that lol.

But I’m actually really happy about it. Like… real freedom. I go for scans and an updated Natera test the following month, but still I’m here, and that matters.

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What’s changed?

My medication was recently increased because of how things have been going the past few weeks.

Am I looking forward to it? Yes and no. Yes, because I clearly need it and it can help me get back to a better place. No, because of what my body goes through while adjusting.

They also changed my appetite medication. I don’t think I ever really talked about this, but I never fully got my appetite back after chemo. I finished in August, and now it’s April… so yeah, you can do the math.

I have to take medication just to eat. And if I don’t, I won’t eat. I’ll barely even drink anything either. It’s honestly frustrating, but it is what it is.

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What am I working on?

Right now, I’m building Serenity Path and working toward getting Chosen Serenity opened.

Remember those names you’re going to hear them a lot.

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It took a lot just to open my laptop and post this. So I hope you appreciate it… losers 😭 (I’m kidding).

But for real, if you saw how many times this stayed on my to do list as “post a new blog” and I just didn’t do it… yeah.

So pat on the back to me.

-K🤍

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